I started searching at a very young age for acceptance. It appeared to be elusive. Acceptance from my high school physical education coach, peers, church, father, and society in general. What did others want me to be? What did others expect of me? What were others perceptions of me compared to my perception of myself?
With the exception of my mother, I went through most of my life not feeling accepted. I knew from a very small child that I was different. I knew that my attraction to the same sex was different than what I was surrounded by and what I had been taught to be the norm. That difference left me feeling somewhat isolated and alone. It was a daily mental battle to try and live up to the expectation of others. It was a struggle to be who they thought I should be as opposed to who I really was. Living two separate lives was difficult.
It took me until much later in life to learn a valuable lesson. After so much hurt and rejection from others down through the years, I realized that acceptance and happiness are inside jobs. I learned the value of fully accepting and loving who I am despite the opinions and thoughts of others. As I have become more awakened to the truth, I’ve come to realize that the journey to love and acceptance isn’t about finding “the one” to love and accept me. The journey is about becoming “the one” that loves and accepts myself. Who you think you are is probably one of the most important thoughts you can have.
I am now my true self in every since of the word and in every area of my life. No more need to pretend or be secretive about anything in my life. It is very liberating. I am blessed today to have so many awesome people in my life who love and accept the real me but more importantly, I am thankful that I love and accept myself.
Who are you? Are you living two separate lives? Are your actions and behaviors different around certain groups of people or are you really your true authentic self at all times? Are you harboring secrets? Growing up in church, I saw a lot of double standards. There was a lot of teaching and preaching that did not line up with the lifestyle I was seeing in those doing the teaching and preaching. This was puzzling to me. Why were so many people living secret lives yet condemning mine.
I have learned not to let others perceptions of me define who I am. I am the only one who gets to define me. I am true light. I am created by the one source and one power that created all. I am a divine being. You too are all those things. Live your true authentic life. Be honest with who you are. It is an important component to achieving optimal health and true spirituality.
See you next Sunday for my weekly Sunday blog. I look forward to your comments and replies as we grow together on this journey to optimal health.
Peace and blessings